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let the earth shake
as the faces we wear tears away
if the heavens divide,
will the stars come crashing down from the sky?
when did we write on our hearts that this stage is all we're meant for?
it's like our heads are floating in the clouds
we can't see the bottom of it all
when will I learn that I know nothing of your love?
when will I be able to love with my arms open wide?
beneath these bones I have soul to create
this rotten flesh spoil me with such fate
maker of mine do you hover the sky above?
maker of mine do you cover the space and time?

If angel like chords were put together
By the hands of a genius writer
His songs couldn't describe
This heart wrenching beauty before my eyes
I took some shots straight to the head
At the thought of you with someone else
I drove down the 91 east
To find your red lips on my cheeks

discretely I crawl out from under this skin
their voices whisper in my ear, they're in my head
I no longer know where my body has been
when I'm alone I laugh at the people I mislead
pull the knife out of your throat
your not real, you were never real
evidently I know I should keep my mouth shut
for the normal will stare me down in fear
my words are spent, I pour blood from this cut
you haven't seen what I have seen my dear
my mother fights the demons inside of me
these bite marks are evidence that you know nothing about me

the voices they whisper in my ear
scare those afraid of emptiness
they are not what they appear
fear is the root of loneliness
pull the knife out of your throat
your not real, you were never real

If I was a god I would make all the people the same color
No matter what the law says they will judge to make you look smaller
The color of your eyes and your skin shouldn't define your existence
Tiny is the man who asks for heavens after dictation of a genocide
The stronger you are the bigger your heart like the ocean
Oh sleep is so good when the world spins to fight against you

Safety In The Snow

Where do you go when your far from me,
When the whites of your eyes turn bloody?
Those hands held me through my younger days
With the snow, your deepest love has washed away
This ladder was being built inside of me
To love the ones who would kill me
Where did I go wrong?
You've dug so deep into my heart
Was fate the better hand form the very start
I'm living stronger to your distance
With nothing I challenge my existence
Those hands give me hope for better days
Because your hands gave me a life to stay
This ladder was being built inside of me
To love the ones who would kill me

The problem of evil

Evil is indicated as not our doings
It happens to us in misfortune
Here we have these causes in variety
Maladies of the spirit or anxiety
Death of the ones you don't want to lose
Prospect of one's own death
You dare disrespect and diminish integrity
Caged by this sin and suffering
Evil a violent excess by human
Lamentation and blame

No purpose

Did these walls always bleed?
When my knuckles were sore
From my mother's hands I feed
Love was for myself and more
Time will never heal my regrets
Sacrificed her for this realization
To such cruelty I placed my bets
My existence is the work of nothing
Left in the dark with the world
On shattered bottle and skull
Hands race to a knife so dull
The crows flew drenched in cold
I'm more alive then my mother
With her smile not any other
This is a tale that I never tell
To the dark notes these words sell

I am nothing with no purpose

Miles and Miles

How less is the one who needs saving
The ones worth the clouds mean nothing
Depth is how deep you want it to be
Impersonal source do you keep me waiting?
Give me the answer you want to hear
Poison, the words drip from your fear
Self authentication, nobodies wrong
Grow inside of me, ignorance holds strong
Flesh of flesh bare me with such fate
Under the bones, I have soul to create
Longer does the emotions take over my body
Living alone is pain but dying is lonely
I've got a demon caged inside of me
This slave is sure that I'm not free
It says I'm locked inside my morals

Help me escape. Help me escape.

Black Death

Before I spot this mental axe
Do you wish death upon blood filled ears?
If I am blinding your fears
How are you so sure about death?
Our fathers have left a trail full
We walk the dark where the dead lay
Oh dear sea, do you fear me like they do?
Again and again I question the same questions
All this time we have here
We'll die knowing nothing
We're walking on your ashes
These eyes seek the boundless
Our mothers have left a trail full
We walk the dark where the dead lay
Oh dear sky, do you fear me like they do?
Again and again I question the same questions

Did I make you angry?
When I dipped my head outside of your love
Rest upon this heart
To bring her back,
I would drink my liver black
Where did I go wrong?
To bring her back,
I'd throw my heart to the dogs
Should I not be a lover
Should I wake from this endeavor
What do I do now?

ALBUM

pre production of the album starts soon

I'm so excited

I need to be more open minded and write simple yet serene lyrics
I'm down haha

Peace blogspot

A Message Underneath The Skin

So, recently I've made myself break a moral I had inside of me.
Over a girl who turns my sky upside down.
She's sixteen and I'm nineteen.
Yes, if we were to fuck... it would be illegal.
Not saying we are, I'm just walking on dangerous grounds.
Why do I feel like I'm walking into another one of those heart break traps?
Do I trust this feeling or do I abandon this operation whole?
This choice...this Friday.
The choice I make will change the course of my life entirely within the heart.
Because I do like to just like...
I like to gradually love.
Is it wrong for me to feel this sense of doubt in her.
Or is she still a little kid and knows nothing of treating a broken heart.
Life and its wonders.
All I know is, I've made my decision and I'm going to pull through with it.

Random Thought

Tainted by wisdom or is wisdom tainted?
How would one know proving he has obtained wisdom?
The harsh truth of swaying over to the favorites in your thoughts
I've known all my life,
I led myself to believe God does not exist
I now lead myself to some sort of peace and self
The more I try to understand
The quotes sink deeper
The sentences look bigger
Although one meaning is understood of a certain phrase
There are more to it then one meaning so therefore
I'm ignorant even with knowing
But how?

Ignorance is welcomed in my train of thought
For ignorance leads to knowledge and vice versa
Quotes sink deeper into my skin than it should
Lyrics slap me in the face harder than it should

I'm standing my ground through all the bullshit in life and it's philosophy

Beautiful

DiPiazzas this friday was the biggest stress reliever.
At times I feel like my life is kind of worthless, because in this country you can't really do much without papers. It's effecting my life really hardcore.
Sure there are people without papers that still live in this country,
but I was always lead to believe I was like everyone else.
It's harder for me to let go.
Back to the DiPiazzas show.
A couple of kids were singing along to "In Losing A World," and it made me re-think about my worthless life.

I always told myself my life is in my hands and it's true.
Now, I should start to realize what I have instead of what I don't have.
Everyone has flaws but I think that's one of my biggest flaws.

The more I know about things that don't seem to work out.
The more depressed I become.
One of the most important realizations I've come across is to love myself.
I am in the process of completing this task one step at a time.

I've forgotten

My life is in my hands
I've lost myself
This time I really did it
I lost myself...

I've lost myself in pills
I've drowned myself in alcohal
I've done wrong to myself

Now here i am paying that price back.
I am paranoid

I'm done with everything!
sober fucking life.

c mon rocky
you can do it!

Fighting, for mom and green!

So I'm in love..

with OCEANA's Birth.Eater album.
god dang

If i could write good songs it would be of that tone.
"my mother sings when she's afraid of me"
what a creepy ass line!!

damn I love it!

asdf

The soggy hands that fed my life are cold
A dormant mind crept through this solid skull
And I've seen the salty crystals of my love


And now you leave it up to me
For all I know my mind's engulfed in flames
I'm bleeding from the tip of my tongue
I'm the only one to blame

Grace.

"And I believe there is something here to be learned of grace.
Because I can't help but love you."

I will be a more understanding person.
A giving person.
A loving person.
A forgiving person.
A humble person.

No more drugs. no more drunk rocky. no more treating girls like whores.

Time to grow up.

Filling In The Clocks

I hear this life's an hour glass, don't you dare wake
Charge for the clouds, rip the chain off your chest
It's never too late to be whoever you want to be
The earth is empty, the sun clashes with your eyes
Clouds part there way the light shines through my cries
Let all the men sink in
Get more of these bloody hands
Come closer my child
Gather your hands don't you fear me

Selfishness

Regardless of my views on Christianity and Christ, it seems like I've given into the idea of giving. We as humans naturally are evil. We would do just about anything for our survival and almost nothing will stop us. I've noticed selfishness is a big part of this evil that lives within us. I want to become a nicer giving person with a heart the size of the ocean and an open mind the size of the stars. It's a long journey to be good. But I'm well on my way to find the truth and I'll be swaying to the good side a lot more.

There is God.
Below God a Devil.
Below the Devil, Us.
The Devil's clouded our nature.
We have to fight the evil to get to the greater good.
That's our job.
To keep our morals pure.

Wired.

I am annoyed of everything and everyone.
I don't know why, I don't know how.
I just am.
It's not that I hate anyone.
I don't hate anything.
Today was the first time I've felt dizzy from being wired.
From the crumbs on the bathroom floor to going to forever 21.
It was pure annoyance.
I almost burst into tears when things didn't go my way.

Could it be I have a bipolar disorder?
Could it be I am that much of a fucking baby?
What was it that caused all this.

I'm scared..
Maybe it's everything finally catching up to me.
I'm still dizzy and I can't think straight.

I need to step it down a notch before I hurt someone.
I even let my sister walk home alone.
Yes, I am that annoyed.

Weird. I've never been high off of annoyance.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

My mind is slowly slipping away.

Over the tiniest things.... god I need to see a psychiatrist. fast.
I've tried everything to make myself feel better.

I took it out on my poor loves.
How do I crawl out of this state of mind?

INSPIRATION

Inspiration refers to an unconscious burst of creativity in an artistic, musical, or other intellectual endeavor such as the invention of a new scientific theory.

I hit a wall.
It's like I write to write and sing to sing.

I need something interesting to refuel my lack of inspiration.

The Wackness.

A 2008 film that inspires me in a realistic way.

Suppress your sadness and embrace it. Don't become like those "time square" people.

Although everyone knows whats wrong with themselves, It's a matter of admitting and accepting it. So much harder to do then say.

My name is Rocky, I'm 19 years old. I'm going to stay on top of the game and master the knowledge that's building inside of me. In the most least ignorant/blind way as possible.